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The session you’re about to hear takes place during the removal of over the 1200 souls ghosting at the World Trade Center site after 911. We would meet regularly to move as many souls as possible and during those sessions we would communicate with some of those who were allowed to speak. The following was with a man who called himself Carl. During the session when Rajah was present she informed me they were having problems over there. Lots of problems with feelings and emotions and loss regarding their crossing over and leaving their lives and families behind.

R. Carl is coming.

B. Oh, good. Hello Carl.

C. Hello

B. Carl I understand you were in the World Trade Center when it was hit.

C. Yes, is that Robert?

B. Yes I’m Robert

C. Wow, are you at an airport?

B. Yes, we are very close to a military base here.

C. And in our case you wonder where the military was. Someone could have saved us all.

B. Yeah they just couldn’t react that quick.

So, did you work in the World Trade Center?

Yes I did I’m not sure what my position was.

Do you remember what kind of job you did?


How old were you?

It seems I was ready to get my retirement. So I am in my 60s. Doesn’t matter now. Working for my retirement.  He laughs but it seems like it’s a sorrowful laugh. Well somebody will get it instead I hope.

Bethany will get it.

That’s your wife?

No, I believe that’s my daughter.

Oh, okay

I don’t have a wife.

No wife

it’s a little strange in here. But you don’t feel all hot or cold. It’s a Perfect temperature.

Everything is perfect.


So what are you going to do when you move on do you think?

Well I hadn’t planned on moving on so I have no plans. Gentle laughter. No, I was in a severe depression. And I still am. Are you going to come in? How does that work? So Robert, are you coming in?

No, we’ll just talk.

Oh, you don’t come here? You’re in the live world?

Yes, you’re right, I am in the live world.

Boy oh boy. I would never have believed this in a million years.

That you could talk?

Well, where are you at?

Oh, we live in San Diego.

I’ve been there.

You have?

Yes, the Star of India

I go by the Star of India quite often with my work.

So what makes you so special Robert?

I don’t truly know Carl.

Well this is all new to me. If I was alive, I wouldn’t do it.

You wouldn’t do it, no?

No because I feel like I’m scared. Laughs, yeah I feel it?

Well  it’s something we can help people with, helping them crossover.

You know I had a gym on the side. A place for people to come and work out. It was very small. Only people who really want to work out went there. I was fit. Just letting you know, for my age. I was planning on retiring.

What were you going to do when you retired?

I was going to get a job.(He laughs) no I was just going to be in my gym. I wasn’t charging too much for people to go to my gym anyway. I gave them a year for $100.

That’s a good deal. Some people pay that per month.

It’s ridiculous. They don’t come at the same time in fact they never come.

Yes, they like to join so they can feel in shape.

I’m pretty fit also. I work out quite a bit.

What age group are you in?

I’m in my late forties. It’s a good time.

It’s a great age.

It’s the time we get to understand more.

I don’t think we get to understand anything.

No, but this new stuff going on, you know with what I’m doing here?

You know I had a severed head?

How did that happen?

I’ll tell you. I just got hit by a whole bunch of sharp things. Right after I lost my head I realized what I saw. My body and I didn’t know, It’s almost like I felt animated, like I could walk over and put my head back on my body. Try that one and I was so depressed.

So at least no pain though. It happened so quick no pain.

You do have a lot of pain not physical. More like anguish.

I can understand… you no longer get to have your dreams, your plans.

Well I don’t feel… I just feel like I got robbed. You know? Of the rest of my time.

Yeah, you worked so hard to retirement for this to happen.

You may as well not even work Robert… Ever.

You’ll be able to work over there anyway… be a little different I guess.

Yeah, but we don’t work over here.

No work? Well no pain. No pain no gain as they say.

Lots of pain In my heart.

Because of your feelings?  What do you miss most?

You know if I could remember a lot of stuff I know there would be things I miss. I’m thinking like it’s my Friday night martini. With my friend Bill.  That’s what I feel.

Every Friday night you would get-together with Bill? That would be fun? Talk and Joke?

Not far from the job.

Not far from his job either?  Bill wasn’t involved there?  Working at the World Trade Center?

No, he wasn’t here.

He wasn’t there. Where was he?

I don’t know. I don’t think he came to work that day.

What a lucky guy he was.

But I just don’t know. I know he’s not here though, I asked that lady.

Yes, that is Rajah. So he worked with you in the same building?

Yes in the same building, same office same, same, same. I believe I was a trader of some sort.

Like a commodities trader or something like that?


That’s  a  tough job.

I’m going that direction. That’s what I’m getting.

That’s what your feeling?

I made good money, I had money. I had everything.

Well, you have a lot of options coming your way.

Yeah, but they’re not what I chose. And I feel real selfish. But I’ll tell you I just didn’t deserve it.

Did you make more friends now? Have you made friends.

You know, we’re all in the same boat. I am severely sad. I mean, I feel that way. When they asked me to get over there and get into a line I declined but I got put back into the line. I had to go.

I think things will brighten up for you.

Well, when you first see everything you see devastation. And there’s a lot of bodies right? And you see the death in an instant and then it was gone. Then we’re back to looking okay.

So you basically have the same look and clothes?

I think I do. We don’t see anything. But I think I do.

Well, when you see other people do they look like they would on earth?

Yes, that’s right now sometimes it’s real weird. Sometimes you see just an outline of people. Almost like those little things that you used to cut out in school. Little paper dolls. In the distance.

We had a pretty big group today.

Yes, but it doesn’t feel big though. Were not doing anything. Pushing shoving anything.

Is everyone pretty anxious?

No, it’s a really quiet time here, they play really good music. Something that I would like you know?

What kind of music is it?

Nothing I’ve ever heard before.

Oh really?

There are horns.

I’ve gotten to talk to quite a few people like yourself over the months we’ve been doing this. So the stories are very similar. Some people are excited about coming over and then going back to earth again.

I’m not very excited about that and then being taken right out again. You know?

All that hard work you did.

I thought that I’d have… you know really Robert dying at the hands of that kind of­­­­ blankety-blank.

I know you want to say something but you can’t.

Yeah, that kind of people is something different you know.

It’s like a kid who wants to ruin it for everyone because their life isn’t what they believe or whatever. You know?

It’s the same idea as the little kid just a little harsher.( He laughs) you know I lost my head? Very fast.

Very fast and painless?

I didn’t feel anything except sadness.

I was in New York at the time but I was in Albany.

Lucky you. But who knows maybe I’m the lucky one.

You are moving on in your progression. We have talked to so many people that have moved on and they all seem so very happy.

Do you ever get called a witch or anything like that?

Yeah, a little bit.

I know if I wasn’t here I’d be calling you a witch. You know damn (oops) witches. You know?

We don’t look at it like that. We just look at it like were helping people.

Yeah, but it’s really a strange thing.

You should see my friends they really think it’s strange. They don’t believe it you know? I don’t know what they think I’m doing. It’s hard for them to believe.

That’s okay it’s all okay. I wish I could be a voucher.

What I do is write up the stuff just to document.

Yeah, but if you’re believing in something and yours is a little strange you got to admit. Lots of people do it. What’s his name there “the crossroads guy?” You know?John Edwards. What about him?

He’s good but we are so much different in what we do.

But he does good?

He does really good. He opens it up for people to start believing.

But it’s okay even if they don’t. Because I know now.

You know now. That’s for sure. Did you have much religion in your life?


But did you believe in the afterlife?

I believed in Jesus.

So, have you gotten to see any beauty there?

You know it’s all around us and the feelings are all around us. It’s really nice here. But what I wouldn’t give for a big fat cheeseburger.

I had one last week.

I used to have me one once a month.

That’s about what I do too.

It was just so… it’s just that it’s… You take those little burgers for granted. You take everything for granted.

Our whole life. Well, it seems you lived a good life.

I had a really nice life, a good clean life.

So you don’t have to go into a timeout or anything like that?

Yeah, they said I do. I had Bethany and I wasn’t married to her mother. But I was married. It was an affair I had.

You get in trouble for that?

Not too bad. Just a little bit.

Is it because you should’ve been married to her?

No, I should have not been married if I was going to do that. Have a baby with somebody else.

Did your wife know you had the baby?

When she came to be older she did. And my wife I really don’t know too much about her.

No, the memories are not there? You get more memory when you move on. Is that what they tell you?

You know, I don’t know. I kept asking. You know, was I married was I… because I can’t remember if I was married. You know maybe I wasn’t. But everyone is asking questions.

Everyone wants to know don’t they? More questions more questions. How did you get to be selected to talk?

Go talk that’s what they said. And I was looking around. We do know about you but not everything. But some stuff. I was under the impression that you were coming in here and that you were someone who was going to show us where to go. Like a  Maître d’.( He laughs)

We think of ourselves as a liaison. We help with the shift.

They said we had to come here because they figured out a way for us to move.Then they canceled it.

They canceled it?

Today,  then she comes back later and says let’s go. Women are indecisive.

It’s my fault. I’m a little late today. I was doing a job.

Oh, so she needs you?

I don’t know exactly how it works but I think we’ve created a porthole or something along those lines.

Que sera sera.

We try to do as much as we can.

I flew a kite. You ask, it’s very strange.

How did you fly the kite?

I said ”I wish I could fly a kite”.

And you did?

All of a sudden I was flying a kite and then I got nervous the feelings they were overwhelming. Then they calmed me down. Then that was it.

Maybe you can ask for a cheeseburger.

We can’t. We don’t need to eat.

Maybe you can just experience the illusion of eating.

Well you know you miss everything, the smells but when you’re talking it’s very strange. I’m really not sure how you’re even hearing me or whatever. It’s just going to come out anyway. I can actually smell stuff.

What is happening is your speaking through my sister.

Oh, so you’re adding into my horror.(He laughs) oh, I have seen that before in the movies.

It’s kind of a movie I guess. But we have the real deal going here. So what I do, I’m a hypnotist.

Okay, I like it.  I was hypnotized before. They had me singing like Frankie Sinatra.

Did they say you are good?

No. I just remember being with Bill. I did a lot of stuff with Bill. I Wonder if I was gay? I am only remembering Bill. You know what I mean?

Well, you are remembering your highlights. I guess, you never know, good times. I’ve got a friend and we go out a lot and have a lot of fun. And we’re not gay.

That’s what you say.(He laughs)

I wonder how Bill feels? Do you remember Bills last name?

You know I was trying but what keeps coming into my head is Murray.

Oh, Bill Murray.

But I know that’s not him. I saw him once in Ghostbusters and Caddy shack. One of my favorite movies.

It was one of my favorites too.

I asked some of the people here if they had seen Caddyshack. They don’t remember it.

Really, they don’t remember it?

Sometimes you remember. Sometimes you don’t. I’m telling you, it’s very odd.

It is very odd. Lots of times people don’t even remember their name. But they remember all kinds of stories.

It’s funny. I had a belt that had my initials on it. Just C.C.

Did you have a car in New York? Or did you even have to have one?

I don’t recall driving. I don’t need to drive now.

Is someone calling you?(He seemed distracted).

No, is someone doing the dishes?

Yes, that’s my sister’s son Eric. And can you hear the dog snoring? That’s my sister’s bulldog. Just like being home. Sometimes the phone will ring and someone on your side will ask can we call their house.

That’s what I was just thinking of asking. You could just call my number but I can’t remember it. Numbers mean nothing now.

It is funny I have talked to those in your space and call their relatives back here. You can imagine how interesting that is, listening to that conversation.

Maybe you got hang up calls?

Not so much because I normally ask a question only that person would know. That really helps. Otherwise they’d just think we are crazy.

Did you get things correct?

Yes we did.

Very cool. Yeah you have to be really incredible if you’re going to be a witch doctor.(Someone says something to him from the other side) I’m just playing. I know it’s not witches. She’s telling me it’s not witches. They don’t have a sense of humor sometimes over here. I guess there is just too many things going on.

Yes, they’ve been very busy.

You know what I remember though I had a roof the ceiling I remember was crumbly. Umm, acoustic. But I had one.

Okay, you had a crumbly ceiling. Did you have a view out your window?

I don’t know, I just know the acoustic ceiling.

They don’t make those anymore. I think back in the day they used asbestos. Did you travel much in your life?

I have no idea. I was asking earlier. Oh, she said I did. You see they didn’t really want to answer questions because then everyone would start asking questions. They would say well, you answered his question why can’t you answer mine. It gets crazy. So that’s why it’s very limited. They said if I want to get up and talk I better get up there now. So here I am.

Well hopefully we’ll make the transition more pleasant for you.

Yeah,  their calling for me to go. So I am out. I feel sad, I feel like I bonded with you.

We did bond. God bless, you have a lot of adventure coming your way.

Yes, she’s telling me my time is up.

Okay, bye Carl.

Rajah comes back through now and tells me they are gone now. We moved quite a bit today and she tells me it’s getting easier.

Hope this post is enlightening and if there are any questions just let me know.



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